Tacos for 79 cents,
squeezable mild sauce ask for extra
Children’s Place, a tunnel with carpet inside
Another at the storefront window
My first walkman
Downstairs at a stereo store in the corner next to Strawbridge’s
Across from Heroes World
but then Heroes World moved
One time I saw a man there with the inside of his ear on the outside
But that was when it was still downstairs
Still cool because it wasn’t cool
I stole one and my mom made me give it back say sorry to a lady who didn’t care who probably stole stuff too.
White tiles – big
Black tiles- small
Step on a crack, break my mother’s back by the Clinique counter.
but not my first bra. That was at King of Prussia.
Sbarros The Gap Randomness up there near JC Penney’s or Sears, the store I never went inside because it was for poor people
Broken glass my dad ate inside a Chinese stir fry at a restaurant that once lived near the top of the escalator that became the Food Court
Giggling at boys
Yummy blonde skater boys named Jon P with bangs hanging over one eye.
Never paid attention to me ’cause my bangs were too crunchy or my nose too big or i wore scrunchy socks or scrunchies or was too Jewish or too rich
even though I never thought I was rich
just had nice clothes and got to go on vacation
and my parents were married still.
Silver City Pink
On my lips before trying to get in to see Down & Out In Beverly Hills and then again to see House which wasn’t so scary with the guy from Greatest American Hero (I know his name because my dad was his lawyer once).
Rocky Horror Picture Show sometime later after the Sophmore Cotillion Josh made me sit on the end and I was scared of the transvestite.
Cookie cake – so many cookie cakes
Sam Goody’s 2 for 99 cents bin
Teeny tiny chicklets in a yellow envelope damp at the top with my saliva
Once we were kicked out for loitering
Me and Dylan and maybe Sondra or Meghan, I don’t remember but what a dumb cop to think good girls knew how to loiter
We weren’t even hiding the Benson & Hedges cigarettes in our pockets that day.
Passing by girls who used to sleep over my house in my double bed with me next to me after softball but now hardly say Hi to me pretend they were never there.
Laughing at a fat kid because Michael P. with his feathered black hair said to and because that’s what you do when you travel in packs
McDonald’s a book store Hallmark that T-shirt place that awesome iron-on T-shirt place where you could choose cute critters or Papagalo’s Pizza or Adam Ant what was it called up there above Woolworth’s where I used to buy tye dye with Rachel so we could make t-shirts and sell them on my street where cars passed by because it was a busy street not a quiet court like hers
One time I got lost
– or was that Jason?
One time my mom hid from me, from us, to teach us a lesson
One time I saw Brian there and he winked at me and I felt pretty and popular and was certain that my life was about to change
One time I dared to go into Spencer’s
One time I got my ears pierced at Piercing Pagoda in front of everybody, why did they do that? in front of everybody?
One time I went back there and it wasn’t there anymore
Not even the piano store where they used to give lessons and play Liberace reminds me of Bubbi and Poppop always because I took organ lessons there for a week or two or maybe a month but not long enough to know how to play the piano or the organ and any instrument that would allow me to make music I so desperately want to make
Not even Structure or Express or anything that smells like Drakkar Noir
Just some of the walls were left
And a Lens Crafters
All gone now
Empty even with the financial planners and the time share sellers and the dermatologists and the RENT THIS SPACE signs
Gone the giggles
Gone the smells of french frying
Gone the pop rock fizzle on your tongue 80s hairspray pink aerosol Aqua Net bangs manes clipped with plastic teeth
Gone the giggles
Gone the girls
Waiting for a ride home
Waiting for my life to change