The dichotomy of a bug

Lately, I find myself seduced by bugs.

bug

Photo by Jen Maidenberg

On the one hand, they’re so, so ugly.

So disgusting.

I don’t want them anywhere near me.

And yet, I can’t get close enough.

I want to examine them. Study their intricacies. See how they’re made. Gaze into their eyes.

I’m fascinated by their beauty. By the very clear and intentional design of their wings, their backs, their stingers.

Who made bugs so beautiful and so ugly at the same time?

I often ask myself the same question about religion:

Who made religion so beautiful and so ugly at the same time?

Who made it so I could find solace and comfort in prayer and community, while at the same time feel so ashamed at the behavior of  my community leaders and fellow members?

Who made religion so beautiful and so ugly at the same time?

Who made it so I could be so energized and enlightened by religious texts, and so confused and hurt by their antiquated, yet still upheld laws?

Who?

Who made it so beautiful?

Photo by Jen Maidenberg

Photo by Jen Maidenberg

So ugly?

At the same time?

And, perhaps the better question is why…

What purpose does this dichotomy serve?

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3 thoughts on “The dichotomy of a bug

  1. Pandora’s Box, definitely. And yet, this has been my relationship to religion since I was 13. Intrigued and engaged, sometimes. And then angry and resentful by what I see as hypocrisy. I think I am far from alone in my thinking… Though you couldn’t tell from the comments here. LOL!

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  2. I like bugs – some of them, anyway. Some bugs are beautiful. I’d just prefer them to steer clear of me and my flat, a-thank-you-very-much. And, er, it’s kind of evolution that shapes creatures and the way they are. They are adapted, over millions of years, to suit their environment. It’s scientifically proven – it’s only humans who view these creatures as “ugly” or “beautiful”.

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